Hey people, thanks for the kind words. It’s funny how I didn’t realise that there are other people who are going through similar downs. Maybe I’m complaining too much? Did I? Maybe I shouldn’t worry too much?

Anyway, I felt a slight relief after writing it out yesterday. It occurred to me that the cause of my downcast might actually be something so simple albeit there are prolly more than one factor contributing to it.

I’m deprived of blogging. It is the reason for the very disappointing blog post on 4th february, well, pertaining to my actual birth day.

I don’t know about you, but blogging to me is like telling my closest friend about my life. He doesn’t talk or reciprocate. He just sits there, and listens eagerly to me, paying his full attention, even if I’m ranting and cussing nonsense. And, he looks at every single picture I’m putting in my blog entry and he appreciates them. Most importantly, I’m having such a great time talking to him. And I’m in such a wonderful mood that I’m wearing a beaming smile when I blog.

This “mood” is the main kick that gets me blogging. Even if it means losing sleep or getting somewhere late. It is the adrenaline rush that I get from it.

Interrupting me while I’m blogging is the worst that can happen. For one, I’ll lose the interest in writing that entry and will not get it back even if I get back to it moments later.

My yearn for blogging may seem puerile and insidious, but if I had to cheat myself into thinking that I have the mood to blog when I don’t, it’ll defeat the purpose of blogging ultimately.

Of course, I can’t possibly use that as an excuse to not find a proper time to blog. The least that I can do is, try not to let it hinder with too much of my other stuff. But sometimes it just can’t be helped, when the “mood” comes, I’ll just have to get it over and done with.

So, please. Don’t deprive me of blogging.